Saturday, February 26

lay it down slow..

... lay it down slow ...

if you got dreams in your heart
why don't you share them with me?
and if dreams don't come true
i'll make sure that you're nightmares are through

if you got pain in your heart
why don't you share it with me?
and we'll just wait and see
if it's half what it used to be

if you've got love in your heart
why don't you keep it with mine?
i can't promise a miracle
but i'll always be try

dunno why,
when I hear this song
I'll drop my tears again and again

I remember about Michael Scofield's death
his struggle in life

--- like us ---

Friday, February 25

don't you dare..

this is a dialogue between Michael Scofield and Sara Tancredi
on Michael's surgery
[Prison Break Season 4 - Episode 15]

Sara :: I'm going to be right over there the whole time.
Michael :: I'll be right in here the whole time.
Sara :: I'm not going to leave you, okay?
Sara :: Don't you dare leave me.

I thought, it was a great moment..
When you say: "don't dare to leave me.." to someone who you love.

Who's that lucky person? ^^

Thursday, February 24

i found you..

? ? ? someone ? ? ?

someone who had attracted my attention
then invited me into her life

someone who often feels lonely & empty
and I tried to fill that part

someone who always wondered
and make me to wonder too

someone that I care so much
and it wasn't just someone

I realized that
I called her 'dedex'
for the very first time of my life ^^

--- let me come into yours again ---

Tuesday, February 22

heartbeating..

[dag dig dug]

Zeus is angry now
[heavy rain, with lots of thunder plus those sounds and lights]

I am on his LIVE's concert now
I can't do anything, hikz
All I have is this scary
ToT ToT ToT ToT ToT

Let me get out from this kinda things~~~
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Wednesday, February 16

2nise - because of you (lyric)

2nise - because of you

Every time I think of you
just makes me cry just reminiscing by the days
Feeling so strong this blazing fire in my eyes
nothing can turn out the flame
Deep in my heart you live in me
like an angel from the heaven surrounding me
Above the sky shinning bright
i'm falling for you lady

And every day baby loving you crazy
just don't exist without you girl
No matter love you forever future together
I promise you the world my lady
(I care for you with every promise)
beauty of you is so amazing
(Because of you my life is blissful)
you are the love that lights darkness in nights

Single tear drops drips down quickly
as you walk smiling down delightfully
Deep in my heart you live in me
like an angel from the heaven surrounding me
Above the sky shinning bright
i'm falling for you lady

And every day baby loving you crazy
just don't exist without you girl
No matter love you forever future together
I promise you the world my lady

Every mountain every hill
lie flat creating love for here
promise you always be near
Holding you in my arms

And every day baby loving you crazy
just don't exist without you girl
No matter love you forever future together
I promise you the world my lady
(I care for you with every promise)
beauty of you is so amazing
(Because of you my life is blissful)
you are the love that lights darkness in nights

I'll always be with you
I'm so in love with you


Download song :: 2nise - because of you

Friday, February 11

disappear..

... how to escape from this 'fake' world ...

Stuck is suck
Don't kidding with me
Just don't..

These are my favorite ways, maybe you wanna try it:
  1. Build my own busy world. Trying to divert my mind, attention and feelings. Focus on our busy things. Hopefully I can forget for a moment..
  2. Not 'online'. Mail, messenger, social network, and also HP. Avoid another 'frictions' from those..
  3. Listening music or watching video, then let me high. Sometimes I find songs that represent my feelings too. I'm not alone..
  4. Taking a bath and enjoy myself. Although I hate to take a bath, I would enjoy that time so much. So clear and refreshing..
  5. [new] Eating a lot. Fill my emptiness, it is quite tiring..
  6. Sleeping. And hope that it just a dream..
  7. Swimming. I ever tell before, that I found 'new' world, the blue one, the fresh one, the honest one. And I loph it ^^
  8. .... (still finding another ways..)
--- I'm very myself ---

Tuesday, February 8

ruguo..

... I shouldn't say these ...
WHAT IF

What if I had more self confidence and more patience to wait?
I'll spend much time with you. And I would really appreciate it. Because I like to stay-close with you. There would be no regret..
[Unfortunately, I didn't have it all..]
We couldn't get together in senior high school. I could only see from a distance, even it was vague. Never met, never saw your act, never heard your voice, never felt it again. So sick of me..
But I found your replacement, my dear one.. (and I'll never forget you, 'BC')
I learned patience from her. I learned to accept people as it is. I learned to be a wise man. I was changed.. I loph her as my own sister, and I always keep in touch with her 'till now ^^

What if miss Jaeho still on the line?
Maybe, I could still enjoy your innocence and cute. We could 'gojek' together..
[Sorry you passed the wrong line..]
Tet tooot, you broke our heart

What if I didn't read 'the note'?
I think it would get worse when I never realize it..
[Even after I read it]
I knew that I was guilty, but my efforts to fix it always in vain.. zero.. NULL.... No response at all..
I was foolish.. I can only say: 'no comment..'

What if I know your feeling?
Maybe I would comfort you and make sure that everything gonna be alright..
[But I did childish things]
I felt your anger, then I was afraid to come in again. Sorry, I didn't mean it, but I had broke ours..
I was foolish, huh? I can only hum: 'anyong, goodbye, adios~~~'

What if ... ?
No need to say 'ruguo' or 'what if' again..
I am not a fool!! I don't want to sing 'apa' song anymore..
I have to keep my promise. That's all

--- this was my karma ---

Monday, February 7

my first angpao

I got a 'red envelope' ^^

Chinese New Year
Errrrrrrrr, unfortunately, I didn't get a single one from my family or my relatives. Because I've worked. In other words, this is my time for giving.. (cycle of life, huh?)
Chinese New Year's eve ago, I didn't spend with my family too. I had C.O.D and even trapped in the heavy rain. This made me sad, so tragic for me..

Still in an atmosphere of Chinese New Year
On the church, there are some angpao's trees. We could choose and pick the angpao. And those, would be yours..
Finally, on the fourth day, I got it.. I got angpao from my church, when I was 'dating' with Simbok.

This is my angpao :: Habakuk 2 : 4
  • Behold the proud, his soul is not upright in him; but the just shall live by his faith.
--- And I got 'that' ---

Saturday, February 5

'the gift'

I can't do that, but you could
You can't do this, and I could

From those facts, I realized these..

I was born with imperfections
and your presence has been completed mine
[vise versa]

I didn't feel jealous, but I said that was cool
then I learn to be more grateful
because I could be the part of it and enjoy it too
[could you?]

Thank you for reminding me
and made me amazed for a moment
so, I started to add my new wish-list
[hope is a dream that never sleeps]

Am I the only person who get the benefits from all of it?
Nope, I still try to share it with you

Let me say this:
You are 'the gift' that I've waiting for ^^